TK, please don't make assumptions about figures from the calculator. You need some L advice specific to your sitch. Please try and calm yourself down a little. Spinning like this isn't going to help. I know it is tough and your W may be making some poor choices right now, but Az is right. We don't get to choose some things that happen to us, but we get to choose how we respond. And if you can respond in a way that you are happy with, 2,3,5 years down the line, then that is the main thing I think.

So, slow yourself down, take deep breaths, stop spiraling my friend. Just now, things are tough but ultimately all will be well. Is there a calming activity you can do to settle yourself today?

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus