have i been making mistakes too long part 6

[tkdmme]

I just made appointments to see three different lawyers next week. It is my understanding that once I have seen these lawyers she is not allowed to use them.

It made me physically ill to call these guys. I cant believe this is happening. Why in the world would anybody put themselves through such a devastating experience. I know im going to get screwed here. I make more than twice the amount she does. I wouldn't think she would clean me out so to speak but I don't know this woman anymore. I don't know what she is capable of. I like to think she would be easy on me but at this point I think she is going to try to get everything she can from me. Why wouldn't she? she doesn't care about me.

My mind is racing and I ma worried about what is going to happen. She still hasn't filed or moved out or done anything for that matter. I started looking at my finances and it is overwhelming. I cant breath.