Had a good night last night was more optimistic than I was before BD. Started to get some feelings of anger, but didn't let them take over, but definitely a nice change of pace from all the pain.

Woke up this morning feeling pretty down. I miss her a lot. Re-Reading detachment again. Got my DR book in the mail last night. Didn't have time to start reading. But excited for that.

Unfollowed her instagram account. She has been posting pictures in her underwear (she wants to be a fitness model) Hurts too much to look and read the comments. She always said I didn't let her express this goal of hers, and that I got too jealous. Maybe so. But I told her many times this past year that I had no arguments about it. Just keep it classy. I think she was still holding on to my old point of view for some reason. Maybe to justify how she felt about the whole marriage.

Got my entrance interview accepted for physical therapy school. That's on Nov 6. Finally moving forward with that! Took my wife leaving for me to get the ball rolling haha.

M: 29 W: 28
D: 8 S:1
M: 10 T: 11
BD1: 8//15 (physically separate)
Back together: 4/16
BD2: 3/18, physically separate 6/18)
Here we are again.