Just having a couple of tough weeks. I feel overwhelmed trying to get all this stuff done, but I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I am getting excited about hopefully going to college next year. Still lots of uncertainty, but most of it is out of my control. My BFF helped me put together a master list of things that I need to get done and I'm ticking a couple of things off every day. That helps. My H stopped by yesterday and we spent a few hours together. He seemed uncomfortable being in my house, seeing all the things I have accomplished, without him. I did mention all the nail holes, lol!!! I don't think he has ever patched holes in drywall or used a sander in his life. He is so NOT a handyman, but I loved him anyways.
This week is our anniversary. I will see him on that day. I am heading to the town he works in to attend the National Scleroderma Conference and will be staying at his moms house for a couple of days. He works nights and I will be out all day attending seminars, so not really spending very much time together. No expectations, but still hopeful that he will remember our anniversary. He did tell me that he wanted to cancel all his lessons yesterday, but didn't because he wanted to see me. (He lives over 2 hour drive away now). I guess that is still a positive sign.
I'm hanging in there, just wish this chapter of my life would come to an end already. I can't ever seem to find the easy path. Changing jobs after 17 years, moving and selling my house after 13 years, "loosing" my H after 5 years, finally cutting the apron strings to my kids after 23 and 24 years and putting myself and my health first, for the first time in my life. In a matter of less than a year, everything I have known all my adult life will be different. I will be different! I'm anxious and curious to discover the new me.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
