Wow, mind is blown 7

[Uphill]

I guess I criticize myself too much lately. I feel like I should know the answers to all the questions I ask, but always second guess myself. I know where I mess up and backslide.

I had beat myself up all last night because usually what FEELS like the right thing to do, is the complete opposite.

That goes for my custody papers yesterday also. It didn't feel right. But it was suggested by my lawyer. She can stand back and see the whole forest, while my attention is unfortunately focused on one tree. I feel like when those papers arrive today or tomorrow, it will initiate a spew fest? I have my jacket on, stocked up on smoothies. I gotta look out for me and S4 at this point, as of now there have been no major threats or arguments from her concerning custody, BUT having it on paper will let me breathe a little easier.