I did a lot of reading on the board last night, and came to realize my biggest enemy right now is myself and a lack of detachment from my W. I realize I can't truly work on myself when I am hanging on her every action looking for the deeper meaning or trying to find hope that my M will work.
So while I have started dimming the lights with my W. The best thing I can do for myself right now is to detach as best as I can. My goal for the week is to remain dim and to work on detaching further.
As always thanks guys and gals for helping me find y way through this troubling time in my life.
