Things started to deteriorate as our sex life went downhill. I blamed W's lack of interest, and began looking for excuses to go out with friends, didn't give her as much attention, and overall wasn't the husband i should have been. We always fought about our sex life after we had been our drinking, and I said some mean things to her. This didn't get any better, and I continued to push her away.
I have no illusions that i was a great husband. It kills me, and i would do anything to go back and talk to myself prior to getting married. To see the girl that would have done anything for me turn to another man, and be willing to walk away is life changing.
I know what i need to work on..and was willing to make every change but once i discovered her A it became hard for me to be the attentive, emotionally available husband she wanted. I wasn't willing to be her backup plan...she continued to lie about the A, and so for every one step forward we would take 3 back.
W has stated that she will not leave her place of work, and that "would that really keep him from contacting me?"
