I am really proud of the person I am turning into and how I've handled myself. I'm going to survive this a stronger, better person no matter how things turn out.
In the end, this is what truly matters.
I will add that in general, I think youve got a lot of good self-realization in what you wrote. For some people, the betrayal you have experienced IS the end no matter what the WS chooses. I wont judge your choices in that matter. What I do recommend is as follows:
1) See that L to find out your options. With so much at stake, you need to make sure you understand your rights. That doesnt mean you need to DO anything, but learning is important. Knowledge is POWER.
2) I urge you to give things some time to settle down before you do go filing. To go from the depths of where you were last week, to feeling in control now...you may find yourself on this roller coaster over the next few days, weeks, month. I implore you to at least give all of this some time to stabilize in your mind so that you can be sure of what you really want. Im not saying to move to "piecing" today - Im saying to let this new normal "exist" for a bit, just to understand it.
