I know i should not care, and i feel like i am doing a much better job and see what is ahead of us, but that doesnt mean it will not hurt. I noticed i am having a hard time keeping old memories from popping into my head. happy ones. which is almost funny because it seem only bad memories come into her head.
Well, I have a consultation with a L today. with her still seeming so happy to keep pushing forward I need to have someone looking out for me. I really do not want to handle this on my own.
I am still praying and have hope, it is getting easier slightly, very slightly.
It's not the fact that you "shouldn't care". You do because you're a good person. Feeling hurt and pain is okay, and you, as a healthy person, should do that. She may not remember good memories until years down the road. Keeping the bad memories only allows her to justify what she is doing. You're doing well. Protect yourself. Stand strong brother.
Me:29 W:27 M: 4 years T: 5 years No children S: 7/7/15 EA: 7/7/15 BD/"I'm done": 7/15/15 MC: 7/7/15-8/21/15 (failed) PA: 8/29/15 W Files for D: 9/9/15 D will finalize in 60 days
