Our M is dissolving before my eyes. It is extremely depressing. W uses the fact that I am withdrawing emotionally to focus on myself as way to justify her desire to get a D. It is like every moment, every action is a test. In my mind I still can't trust that she isn't talking to OM, and all she has ever said is "i've said I'm sorry, but..you did this, and that for so many years"
I so want for her to come back to me with regret and want to work on our M, and I am willing to work on myself as well...but its so hard for me to be the attentive guy she wants when I am still not over her cheating.
