My lizard and her tunnel ...

[late30s]

You're right. I am pressing a bit.

It's becoming more difficult to remain strong when I'm around her. I keep telling myself that the best thing for both of us is to simply let her go. So far she has seen some realities of her decisions with this. Kids won't talk, her family won't talk to her, she's lost many friends. She is living in poverty.

When I got the job, I wanted so badly for her to see it. It's something we had been dreaming about for years now, when I finally get a job in my field, things will get much better. So many late night talks just imagining life when this happened. It's been a dream of hers as well. When I finally realized that goal and she wasn't there to share it with me, I felt like I had cheated her a bit. I felt like Jerry McGuire.

I may be having difficulties completely cutting her loose, but I can be stronger in my interactions with her. No more pursuing her, even with our shared dreams.

Thanks for the input, Cali. Helped me to stop and think about it a bit.