W is the person who pushed me to go back to school. Chances are I would have remained in pizza and been content, but she pushed and now I find myself in a better position than I ever have been.
W confessed to me that she feels like she did all this work to help me to get to this point and now she wants to reap the rewards so to speak. She also confessed that she is still in love with me. Also, she said that she has noticed all the work I have done on myself, says she is really confused on what to do now. She says she is sick of the limbo and feels like she needs to make a decision soon. Either cut me out of her life and pursue things with OM or cut him out and recommit herself to rebuilding our M.
I am doing my best to stay calm and level, not get my hopes up and not let this get to me too much, but I am finding it difficult. It seems that she is nearing the point of returning here and I want the road paved smoothly for that return. At the moment I do plan on continuing to act as if my M is over and move forward with my life. Everything else in my life is going great. Excellent rapport with the kiddos now, great news on the job front, stopped working the second job, so I am not nearly as exhausted as I once was, returning to school in a few weeks, constant GAL events with friends and family. I am in therapy. Finances are well under control. But without her, it all seems a little dimmed.
I feel good about where I am in my life and I feel good about voicing what I want from a relationship and a marriage. I believe that my goals for a relationship are healthy. Maybe I am a sucker, but I believe that W and I can meet those goals together if she chooses to return and work on building our M. At this point I feel like I am simply rambling. I'm open to any advice or comments.
M: 38 W: 37 T: 20 M: 19 Kids: Stepson?20, S19, S16, D12 BD: 02/19/2015 (She moved out) PA Confirmed: 02/22/2015 (She is now living with OM) Dazed and confused: 09/13/2015
