It feels so wrong to have a calm conversation with STBX about bank accounts and realtors when I feel like yelling it him about how badly he hurt me and asking him how he could he just walk away like he did. Why am I being civil to someone who left me for another woman? It seems ridiculous.

I got a little tired of being nice and called to tell him to bring some back something he took that I wanted to keep. Unfortunately I sounded exactly like I used to.

Me53
H48
M 13
No children together
BDMay '15
PA June '15
H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing
Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming