Solo, thanks for the post on my thread. It is ok to have dark thoughts. I was worried that you would get stuck there. You know there's no good future with a heart filled with hate.
Anyway I am posting to share this with you. I don't see myself as being abused. I truly do not. I am reaping what I have sown. I did this to myself. I treated my wife and children poorly for many years. Not badly, if I had my wife would have left already. Because of the past behavior I chose, I now have to live in this reality. I accept my plight. Please do not think of me as some poor innocent soul. I am a man that was a selfish drinking bully. This is the man I was, not am.
I have done and am doing a lot of work on myself to make me the best version of me that I can be. I chose this screen name for a specific reason. The Latin Word Mutatio has many meanings, mainly: change, alteration, transformation. This is who I want to be.
