HaWho, It occurs to me as I read your posts that there's some hostility on your part. Am I misreading that? Adding in comments like "I really don't care" seems like a protective and flippant comment I might hear from a hurt teen. Seems to me that somebody that doesn't "care" doesn't think to mention they don't care
I call that out just to be sure you are aware. I would be surprised if there wasn't some hostility during these changes. I also know from experience, that MLCrs can smell the various feelings. They are highly attuned to things we think are not projecting or otherwise are keeping hidden. Again, just awareness because I'm not sure that you would want to hide all of it. That may not be you if you did. Something to consider.
Other than that, you seem to be learning to surf the waves quite well. You are becoming more and more aware of what's going on and realizing that even the behaviors you saw before won't last.
I also wonder as I read this if your H won't be a far better partner and person to be around when done. Seems like there were some things you might have wanted from him that he'll be more able to give. Later though
And yes, he's spinning. I'm sure whatever he says moment to moment is just how he feels at that moment and may not in the next. Like the filter is broken, right? Don't worry, that's not a forever thing...
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
