Thanks Sandi2 for the advice. And Im actually on the 4th set of your WW threads. I am trying to apply the rules but struggle sometimes. Especially after we have moments like that or today when we took the turtle and went to the park with the kids. She didnt text him the whole time until we were leaving the park.
It is times like these that I struggle the most. I get hurt when reality sets back in and it becomes clear that she doesnt want to be with ne right now.
She want to be with him and follow that road til it is dead. The OM seems to be set in for the long haul too. That is when the fear is the strongest and the pain it's worst. Because the OM doesnt care that he is destroying a family. She doesn't care about us being a family. All I want is my W back. I know I'm in for a long winter. And I'm sure if/when we S the pain will be stronger than ever.
I just have to detach better, but it is hard realizing what a great W I had. Seeing her beautiful self around me and wanting to kiss and hold her, but knowing I cant. I just hate that I am left to wait and see what happens, and hope that things will work out for us.
I hope it happens before they meet and it becomes a PA. That will be my breaking point. I just fear that no matter what, that will happen, and I will have to firgive an entirely different entity. I don't know if I could. Not after seeing all that they have messaged. I would constantly worry about what happened between them to
