Receiving the papers is so tough and I said a little extra prayer for you when I read this. I was in your boat, not wanting D but not wanting to contest either. It is just heart-wrenching.
Hang in there, my friend. And, of course, I agree with Sotto above about D papers being just another milestone.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids