It's been almost a year.

[dwh15]

I'm still in love with my H - in June he told me I am still the funniest, smartest , most beautiful woman he knows he just doesn't feel "in love" anymore - to be so completely rejected by my best friend of 33 years - it seems everyone else on these boards comes to acceptance so much sooner - I don't think I can ever accept this

Not sure where you've been reading about people hitting acceptance quickly, but I don't think it ever happens fast. Especially if you've been a couple for any significant amount of time. I was with my WW for 24 years, am currently 6 months out from DDay, and still struggling daily. I think I'm mostly past denial, but I bounce around between anger, depression, and acceptance on different days. Based on your history, I would anticipate at least a year to start feeling anywhere near normal. I had a cousin go through a D a few years back and she said it took her a year to feel OK with things, and she didn't start dating again for another 4 years after that.

Everyone and every sitch is unique, so there isn't a defined timeline, but just assume it's going to be a while. Even if you browsed here for 10 months prior to posting, it's not that long compared to your history together. Be patient with yourself, and keep applying DB principles. You will get there, as will all of us. Be proud of the fact that your pain means you truly loved and still love your H; it means you are a compassionate, caring person.

Sometimes I wish I could just bounce from one R to the next so quickly and easily as most WAS's seem to do, but then I realize that's not a life of true happiness, and it destroys everyone involved. You will come out of this a stronger and better person.