this sounds so hard. I'm really sorry this has happened for you.
The past few days sound really really intense for you. It is good that you're talking. But perhaps you need to put some solid activities in place for you to rest, to take care of yourself, to nourish and cherish yourself. Whatever happens, you're going to need to be super strong over the next few months and years. Nothing will ever be the same again, and that's going to take a huge amount of getting used to.
Is there anything you have planned for today or tomorrow that isn't about fixing this situation, but is about taking care of yourself?
