WW was playing games this week, trying to show up at the house at times when she thought I might be there, including this morning. I know it's killing her that I went away last weekend and she doesn't know with whom or any details. I think she just wants to have the chance to "casually" ask me. Thankfully I think she's already on the road out of town, so I get a week's break from all this...
The good news is, the startup is making me an offer and sending me a scope of work this weekend - the offer includes an equity stake, and for the first time in a very long time, I am actually excited about the work I'm about to do. It's helping me to keep the focus on me and moving forward, not on my WW. But as far as it might have any impact there? As my friend put it when I told her all that, "That's the woman she needs to want to come back to. The Dif that is the person who is doing what God has placed her on Earth to do."
So I own this much: I lost my own sense of purpose in order to be 100% supportive of her goals and plans - plans that were conceived to keep her from being stuck overseas, plans intended to build a life for us together. But, at the same time, I lost my own spark and passion for my own things. That IS the kind of woman she was drawn to in the beginning. No excuse for what she's done. But yeah... I'm so grateful for this opportunity to do what I do well, and to do it with passion for the work.
Hope you all have a great weekend.
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19
