I feel like we are closer now than we have been since May, when things were feeling so much better. She started kissing me and initiating sex, then it's like a switch flipped. Unsure what I should be doing now. I just rented a house, and haven't moved in yet. Just bought DR, have started on it.
You are being deceived. You are not getting closer. She's just acting nice and initiating sex (b/c you have agreed to what she wants, and it turns her on), You misread her actions and it makes you feel better & closer to her. Yes, she wants you as a friend, with benefits. However, she wants her freedom, also.
Finish reading DR immediately. Keep posting.
Sandi - I read it as she WAS initiating sex up until BD, and then hasnt since. But you may be right.
In any case, the point remains. She is going to be nice until the terms of the D are agree to try to get you to "play nice" and give her what she wants. She is not the same person she was. She is not your friend.
Im sorry you are going through this. Keep posting!