MLC Funhouse continues

[HaWho]

Thanks Deja and Mleigh for the posts.

Mleigh-Interesting to hear the similarities regarding triggers. I can see that bed being a big one. Maybe leave the liquid plumber taped to it and in his fog H will take the whole bed too?!?

So had an interesting day today. H called mid-day to ask if I wanted to go to the beach. I assumed he wanted us to go with kids after school, but he categorically asked we go without the kids. First time he has asked to go out alone in about a month. Progress!

I said yes, but then this horrible dread set in. I started to feel physically sick over it. My stomach was turning and I just didn't want to go. I was hoping plans would fall through. I felt like I was going on a job interview and simultaneously interviewing him.

Oddly when I return home H before we are to go out, H seems completely like old self. He calls me my old nickname without catching himself and is spunky. I jokingly ask if he's been drinking. His exact answer: no I just feel like I have been in a fog or a haze or something. (If he only knew.)

Then I receive call from difficult new boss. He points out some tiny error I made, asks a few questions--all of this could be handled via email. But then, he tells me they are promoting me! Now I know why he called and why he pointed out small error! He is not happy old boss is promoting me.

Suddenly stomach ache disappears and I am dancing around the house! Nice I can successfully use the bellows on certain parts of my life, if not fully on my M!

H and I go out and I end up having fun! He compliments me several times. I still see him trying to back peddle from nasty MLC induced comments he made earlier. He makes a point of saying opposite of things he wrote in letter.

So another thing I wanted to note is that I see H "reconnecting" to rooms of the house. Just as he is waking up to peripheral contacts--old pre-MLC friends and members or my family.

--Post BD H called master bedroom "morose;" avoided it at all costs. (This room was my cocoon in my depression.). Seemed physically uncomfortable if he had to come in. Literally ran out as fast as he could. Post BD, I think he went into that room twice for 1 minute total.

--H barely went into living room or kids' rooms post BD.

--Now Master bedroom is the only room in the house where he is affectionate with me. He does not initiate affection in other rooms of the house. (Except for a few times in his room.). This has surprised me as he seemed to have the strongest reaction to master BR. So I would think he would connect to this last? Opposite has occurred. Of all rooms outside his study/room he moved into for MLC, master bedroom is now where he spends most time.

--He is starting to sit in the living room a few minutes at a time.