PP 2.0 - PigPen & The WAW (7)

[asitis]

Sorry PP. On the disconnect between the being served & her behavior. She may feel that she is free & in control, which allows her to let her guard down & relax a bit. As she may see it, the decision is now behind her, and that is liberating. It can allow the S to let go of a lot of pent up stress and anger, etc. If so, it may be the thing she needed to allow the psychic space to just be herself around you. That would be a good thing.

Still, it is better to assume that you're going to end in D and be surprised I think. Just the cold odds.

That is not abandoning the "as if" exactly, as you still can act "as if" your next interaction is going to go well. "As if" you're going to be OK. "As if" you are going to improve your R in time, even if it isn't enough to save the M.

I'm feeling a bit of the kick in the gut right now myself because of W asking to meet Sat. to begin negotiations. Realized how much I still miss her and don't want her out of the center of my life. Takes a long time to get beyond that.

Hang in there.