So sorry, PP. But I really like what Fogg said, and as I try to imagine your situation from this distance, it looks like you and your W are two people who each needed to be on your own to do the hard work of becoming the people you were each created to be. And you're both doing great, yes?

There is still lots of hope for you to R, but I would look at it this way: you might just need to see this separation through to its utter conclusion. Maybe you can't rush it. You have this wonderful 2016 plan too, right? A plan that you might just have to see through for the good of your growth and soul. As my good friend puts it, when you are on the 80 year plan (which is what she calls her marriage, since they insist divorce is not an option), what's a year or two of struggle, or separation, of whatever is needed to create a union that is built for the long haul?

If you're both doing so well, and continue to only get better? What an amazing new M you two might have. And if you don't R? Well, you already know you're going to be fine.

Still, I know it's hard. [censored] in the moment. Hang in there.

Hugs,
Dif


Me: 46 Her: 41
M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18
3/26 W and I meet OW
BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring
W goes to stay with OW 6/26
NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16
I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19