It's interesting how emotions work. I feel like my emotions were so tense the last few days, which I think means I was getting prepared to do some deep digging and hard work. Writing that post, putting those thoughts out there, has helped me find some clarity. It's clear that the anger and hurt I'm holding onto is poisoning me. I need to forgive him and truly let go in order to move on. I know it will bring me some peace. And I know it is a decision. Just thinking about that, and imagining what my life will feel like if I can let go, is making me feel lighter already.
I can't guarantee I will still feel this way tomorrow morning, but for now I feel it, and that means eventually I can feel this way consistently, and that alone gives me great hope.
