There are many things I do not like about this week the main one being ex is camping with OW! But I feel this week I have had a change of thought! It clicked with me today! This week every year ex and I fight the entire week! I'm resentful in stuck with kids while he is out having fun I hate he spends more time with the car and friends than us I'm always the one getting up to take kids to school packing ect! Essentially I am always the responsible one (the one in control). This year I have not had a single feeling of resentment the only words we have had was about him not working and I promise that was nothing compared to normal. I actually feel happy for him that he is getting to do what he loves happy he is out having a good time happy I have had a good time happy the kids have had fun and happy i get the chance to do what we love! Sure there are bad things such as OW him not making the big show not working cost ect while yes I will worry about those it's actually been a great week and I'm happy! Am I happy because I am starting to accept I can't control what he does? Am I happy because today is a different day? Am I happy because I chose to look at the positive? Am I happy simply to be happy? Am I starting to accept my R is over (for now anyways)? I have no idea but it's a peaceful feeling and I'm enjoying it!
