Hi DDay, I second the sorry to hear that you are in this situation. Definitely read all of the HW that cadet just posted...very valuable stuff.
Begin worrying about what you can do to be a better version of yourself, read Sandi's 37 and try to follow those that you feel apply to your situation.
Continue to post and vent here, we are all here to support you through this rough time.
God Bless.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms