Bright - you have been unbelievably strong for quite a while now. I admire how you've been so gracious to your H.
I think you already know the answers to the questions you've been pondering. Change is a scary thing but you can make the leap. Create a respite away from the ghosts of your past. You are worthy and you are ready. Honestly, letting go and making a clean break is the ultimate 180. A DBusting move that would earn a thumbs up from MWD.
So shine on Bright and be brave. Your future is waiting
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou