Does this mean we are entering piecing?

[Missmeg]

Ok -Rubber band theory, I will have to look this up! And also sounds like I might need to read Men are from Mars women are from Venus. It gets mentioned hear a bunch.

So I got an email from our landlady today at work. She wants to stop by and have us re-sign the lease for another year. I totally panicked. Like literally had a panic attack at work. I kept thinking what if he won't re-sign, and they won't rent it to just me because my income alone isnt enough. I did that catastrophic thinking one does when one is in a panic: I projected out that if the lease wasn't signed, and since I don't have enough money for first last and deposit, I would never be able to move anywhere and I'd be homeless,, , ,which isn't a real possibility. I would work something out, and I know that in my rational mind. But in my panic mode, I was envisioning me and the children out on the street corners. Completely unrealistic but I went there in my head. (honestly, before bd, I was a fairly rational and calm person. My emotions and my disaster-thinking have developed a life of their own since he left)

so when I talked to him today, the first thing I did was ask about the lease. Without any hesitation he asked what time we're supposed to meet her to sign it, and that would be no problem. RELIEF 😓

And he said I sounded shaky, did I need to go out for a drink and some dinner? So we met and ate, and once again it was a highly tender, affectionate, romantic night full of honest and meaningful conversation, Yay!

He admitted that last time we went to MC, he was just going through the motions because he wanted to look like the good guy who was doing the right thing. But that now he is "all in" and sincerely wants to do everything he can to make himself better and make our marriage work. Appointment have been scheduled for all of our counseling (mine,his,ours)

He said that if I insisted he move out from the female roommate, he would do it, but he didn't think the options were so great. ( I have been looking at rooms-for-rent on craigslist for our area, and I have to agree that there's nothing. ) Either he would have to get his own place, which would take away from the money he is able to give me every month to meet expenses, or he would have to move in with his mother, who lives over an hour away.

So he's staying in the current living situation with that female roommate. However, he has taken me to her condo where he is renting a room, and I have met her while sitting next to my husband, and this weekend I spent the night at the condo while she was there, so she knows we are rekindling things

Best part about tonight? For the first time in many months he told me "I love you"