I struggle with similar stuff. I find GAL is the best way to take my mind off how H behaves towards me. I also find that me worrying and thinking about it actively pushes H away, because he can read my face. I do think it's a curse of the female brain.
Can you make yourself a routine that fills those empty spots where you wait for H to do something? Get out of bed first - meditate - journal - go for a brisk walk or work out - somehow take control so you don't have time to wait for his hug. Give him a quick hug instead! :-)
That was good advice, I should listen to that myself!
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17