PP 2.0 - PigPen & The WAW (7)

[PigPen]

Hang in there. No matter how detached someone is, there are moments that symbolically move the sitch along toward D that trigger sadness & loss. I suspect both you and your W will go home and shed tears after signing the D agreement, if it comes to that. It is still a loss, and it needs to be mourned if you are to process it an not get stuck. Allow yourself some of that.

What your detachment is, in big part, is to not be so tied to her that her actions trigger you to react with words and actions of your own that worsen the situation. You succeeded. So, don't view it as a failure of detachment. It isn't a failure in anyway, even though it may feel like one.

Hang in there.

Thanks As, today was a big day for me. I realized that I have to have more faith. Faith that no matter what happens with my W, I'm going to be ok. Somewhere along the "I'm going to the lawyers office tomorrow" text line, all of my abandonment issues got triggered. But I caught them after 24 hours instead of a week. I saw them, looked at them and worked my way out of them.

I also have to remember that I hurt my W a number of times. What she's doing is protecting herself from further hurt. I can't be angry over that choice given I was the one that hurt her. I may not like it, I may have done everything humanly possible to change the man that hurt her, but I still have no right to get angry or upset over the way she's choosing to make sure it never happens with me again.

I still don't like it. but I'm more at peach tonight.

Thanks for your post, I appreciate your perspective as always.

PP