I can fully relate to you. We are only human, and we can accept so much. You have given you all, and you should be proud of that.
If you read my sitch, I have asked the same this weekend to my STBXH, and like you I feel that a weight has been lifted. You have been on an hard but incredible journey, and become a better you. Be proud of who you are.
God has a path for you. Praying for you.
Thank you Rouky, I really needed that, I will chime in on your sitch!