I met WW at a school event last Thursday and she told me she's moving to a new apartment, one block from her current apartment. This one is freshly renovated and more comfy than what they have now. She sees it as something "more permanent". I didn't like hearing this, obviously. Also, D3 and D7 will each have a room, which is new. I told her I would have liked to talk about it with her first because we always meant for them to share a room for a while. I'm a little concerned that D7 will like it less here, sharing her room. Apparently, she's excited about having her own room. The move was last week-end.
I went to my half-brother's wedding on Saturday. Quite a beautiful, small (50 people) wedding at a hotel on a golf course. I had a good time. I wasn't as sad as one may think. During the vows and such, I felt numb. I wasn't really happy for him, nor sad for myself. Just unsure anymore of what these things mean. It seemed like he was petting a tiger: looks amazing, but dangerous.
This is the one-year anniversary of the D@mned Week, between the day where WW uttered the S word for the first time (Sept 4) and the day when I acknowledged that I couldn't keep her (Sept 11). I'm not so bad, although dates matter to me, so I've been thinking much about it.
Yesterday, I pulled frames from a moving box and it was full of our family, couple and wedding pictures. I had a small decoration project so I took out all the pictures from the frames. Again, it wasn't so hard: I was numb. Towards the end, it became a bit much, all these pictures, and I decided to power through the exercise, for fear that I'd never be able to get back to it. All the mismatched frames are on the wall, stripped of their old pictures (replaced with pink paper, for the decorators amongst you).
I've been very productive at work and home recently. This was one of my recent goals and I'm glad to see it happening with such momentum, finally. I've done many things that I had set aside for months or even years, like this decoration project.
Thanks all for your input and support. I mean to get back to your recent messages.
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"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
