Moving Through it 11

[asitis]

I get where you are coming from, and I think most of us (I know I do for sure) struggle with those same feelings. And they are really sh*tty feelings.

Would it change how you felt if she had died?

In other words, is it that the world isn't being fair as you believe it should, or is it that she did this to you? Makes a difference in how you approach it.

But one thing is common in those two alternatives that is worth noticing: you are powerless in both those stories about your life. That impotence can be maddening and scary for someone used to feeling in control (or the need for some of us to really feel in control is a defense against feeling the fear and anxiety of being impotent at times). Can you re-frame your view of your sitch that sees you having some power over your future? Not full control, but power to alter its course more in keeping with your desires? You may not yet, so don't worry if you really can't. Just let that seed lay fallow for a while. I suspect it will sprout & bear fruit.

It's been a rough few days. I hope that passes for you soon.