I don't know man, I feel like I'm back at day one... It's just too much
Trust me. I know that feeling all too well. W had the kids meet OM earlier this week. Our D isnt finalized for months, but she felt this was appropriate for them. Shes gung ho on starting a new family without me. I was a wreck all morning Monday. It felt like I was hit by the same bomb that hit before.
But theres nowhere to go but forward. You cant stop a roller coaster ride halfway through no matter how much youre crying or vomiting or whatever....it goes until you pull back into the station. And thats the same here. There si no throwing in the towel, because theres not really any difference. Whether youre trying to heal from the damage, theres only one path and this is it.
No matter what you try - drugs, alcohol, women, whatever - the hurt is still there. Unfortunately, theres no getting around facing it. Its painful. Its exhausting. Its sad. Its lonely. But it is what is. And we will all get to the other side.
