Thanks for your comments. It was akward and uncomortable the entire time. We did not sit together, just sort of passed each other at the event. I don't know what my problem is, but I swear to God I cannot look at her.
I don't know if it is I am too upset, too frustrated, too sad or just too shattered. Whatever it is, I just can't. I feel so cheated by all of this. Cheated out of what I thought was going to be the best years - raising our kids together. As a gay couple, we worked really hard to have these children, spent years trying. No, it's just "oh well, I changed my mind." Just like that. Just like a puff of smoke.
Oh well, there is nothing I can do about it, hopefully time will continue to help me with these issues.
