My wife texted me on her own for the first time yesterday in 7 weeks. It was nothing special, she was telling me something about the electric bill password she changed (I think she thinks it messes up my account if she changes her password, no clue). Anyway, this the first uninitiated contact since she left.
Obviously, it is nothing to get excited about. What I did get excited about was:
1. When I saw her number on my phone (I deleted her contact info to keep me from texting her randomly awhile ago), I did not get that quick heart beat. I stayed status quo mentally. I think most people on here might understand how big that is. 2. I read the text, quickly processed the info, then promptly deleted the text. I decided there was no need for a response here. I did not want to throw away almost 3 weeks of no contact just to say 'thanks'.
I feel good about how I felt during this. It is such a little, stupid thing I know, but this is exactly the type of thing that has set me back in the past.
Her b-day is next week and I think I can be strong through that.
