Thank you Azzork, I know exactly what you mean and I am not in disagreement.

I am finding it that I feel anxious and the compulsion to snoop takes me until I finally do it. I am writing a letter to my W, expressing the hurt I feel from what I found and also telling her that I will stop pursuing, speaking about the R. When it comes to snooping I am hoping that I can tell myself NO and leave the room and refocus on something else. I know the urge will still be there, but I am hoping it will eventually subside.

My W left the house last night told me she would be back late, didn't get home till 5am. I wasn't trying to wait up for her but found myself not being able to go to sleep. I am really considering getting on medication for my anxiety, as these negative thoughts continue to overtake my life. I would really like to focus on myself but find myself back in my obsession with this whole thing.

any suggestions, 2x4, truths that anyone would like to share will be greatly appreciated. I am concern for my mental and emotional health.

M: 34 W: 33
S: 7
S: 14 months
BD: 6/2015
Separation: 6/2015
Back and Forth between Home and Moms