I thank you for responding to my post from last week. Things have been nuts, but I want you to know I did read it and I get a better idea where you are coming from.
You really should just accept yourself as you are and really work on getting rid of the self loathing you expressed you had at times. I do believe you do have a standard of being " perfect" in your own eyes. Learn to love yourself for who you are.
Which brings me to the statement of " do I stand or start dating". Well, those aren't your only choices. You can chose to stop standing but not have to start dating. Time alone working on loving yourself before you love another again can be some of the time best spent. You don't need to put pressure on yourself to be in one position or another. I think once you really being to love Zeus with your flaws (we all have them). You will find dating and that connection between 2 human beings much differently.
^^^^^^^^what Ginger said. Spot on!! Zeus, I would hate for you to repeat, but curious to know more about the self-loathing. My H said this shortly after BD. How did this relate or factor in with your M/ W? Sometimes I think you and my H might could be the same person. Certainly see lots of similarities.
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015
