It's up to you but you still do not need to rush anything.
It's all about perception, you are thinking that it will appear like you are hanging onto the M, another view could be that you are taking your time to ensure everything has been done correctly and that you haven't missed anything because you want to get it right, in other words you are blaming a perfectionist streak you have.
Both are the same thing it's how you choose to view it that matters.
Beckyb, a lot of what you feel is potentially due to your not detaching sufficiently and/or not having set yourself any goals that you believe in. Have you read the DR book recently? Maybe it's time to revisit it?
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?
