Hey PP, glad to see you in such a good place mentally and emotionally. I've only been in NC since Saturday, but it's genuine, absolute NC for the first time since all this began. Yes, like you I have that pit, that emptiness, those constant thoughts of how much better everything would be with her - the REAL her - in it.
But I love what you shared up there about being truly "gone." From what you shared weeks ago, I suspect your W now has the space to miss you. There must be some kind of void. Whether it leads to R or not remains to be seen, right? It has to fit into the new PP's course of action. I'm in the same place, knowing this is the first time my WW has been really without me at all since we've been together. Until I told her I wanted no contact, she literally couldn't go 36 hours without a phone call, at least. So I imagine she's also feeling the void, but I can't know for sure, and it's not my business.
Patience.
What a tough, tough road this is. But yeah, the support here has been invaluable.
Hugs, PP! Dif
Hi Dif!
Thanks for stopping by. I've been peaking in on your sitch, seems like your W is now realizing what NC really means.
I agree about the road, truly the hardest one I've ever walked. All we can do is repeatedly put our best foot forward day after day after day.
Big hug,
PP
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
