I understand that it would be easy(er) to walk away with no kids, but at this point if i really am honest with myself I want our marriage to work.
I'm not sure you really understood our points earlier. It's not about whether it's easier to walk away without kids. It's that, if you plan on having kids in the future, you are subjecting those kids to an unacceptable risk of pain and damage from a broken family if you make a cheater their mother.
When I took my husband back after his affair early in our marriage, I was only thinking about the risk that I was taking for myself, and I was ok with that risk. What I didn't realize was that I subjected the three children I later had with him, to that risk. And sure enough, he cheated on me when they were impressionable teens/preteens, then left me several years later when they were just going off to college.
All three of my children suffer from mental health issues that are badly aggravated by the effects of the divorce. It kills me when my youngest tells me he doesn't believe in marriage and never expects to have a happy long term relationship.
I subjected them to this pain by taking the risk of making a cheater their father. Please don't do this to your future children.
