Finally asking for help:

[Solo15]

I had a pretty odd weekend. My W has continually been reaching out wanting to spend time with me. I saw her on Saturday. We spent some time at the house together. She brought me lunch after I did the lawn.

Sunday she calls me up and we talk for a few hours in the morning. then in the afternoon she calls me up and asks what I'm doing that night. I said I didn't have plans. Then I asked if she wanted to get a beer with me(I have no idea why). She said she would love that. So after I put my kids down at my parent's house, we met up and had a few beers. Talked a good bit about non-relationship stuff. Then she invited me back to her house for a piece of cake she had made. I went. We hung out more. Then she asked if I wanted to watch a movie with her. I said sure. We sat on the couch watching the movie. First she leans a pillow up against me and leans up on me. Then as time goes on the pillow gets further and further up my chest. She asked me to stroke her hair because she had a headache. So I did. Movie is over, I shut it off, and the pillow goes away, she wraps her arms around me, puts her head on my chest. I pull her in. So I'm sitting there in shock. Then she reaches out and holds my hand. Mind blown.

This goes on for twenty minutes or so, and then I told her it was getting late and I had to go. She said I could stay. I told her I had to be up with the kids in the morning. I left. Never verbally acknowledged anything. Did not bring it up.

Next day, she invites me to dinner. We hang out after the kids are in bed. I told her I had to leave to go to the gym. I reached out to give her a fist bump and she demands that we hug. So I do.

I don't know if this is all crazy, or if something has changed. Just gonna keep it super chill and keep doing what I'm doing. Funny how unaffected I am by this. I guess that's detachment. I mean, I would be lying if I said that this wasn't welcome, but I can see that she's different. Maybe this is the beginning of something new. Maybe just a blip on the radar. But either way, I'm still working on myself. I'm still growing, GAL, hitting the gym, and looking to my future for what I want and how to be the best man I can.

Thanks again for all the help guys. You have all changed my life immensely.