Fresh start to the week and a fresh thread. Hard to believe it's my 7th thread and 9 months since BD. What a crazy, awful, amazing adventure it's been so far.
WAW wife and I are currently co-parenting our pup and beyond that are still in NC. Complete NC. She asked for a D a month ago but as of this morning has not pushed further on it. I will see her this week for the dog trade and will see if anything as progressed on that front. I will be fine either way. 9 months without her has changed my life infinitely more than the piece of paper from the state ever will.
GAL activities are ramping up, so much so that I'm having to plan downtime. GAL'ing is still hard as I'm currently in the place of thinking "this would be so much more fun with my W" or spending time with mutual friends of ours. I live in a small town so finding new communities to befriend that don't know us and our history is a challenge.
My DB plan is to use the brief interactions that we do have with our dog to be at my best. And to use the time in between to continue down the path to making myself the best man that I can. Married PP was not the PP of today. I can't go back and be the version I am now, so I'll continue to forge ahead. Detachment is still the ultimate challenge, as is getting through the day without thinking about her or missing her. I will be ok without her, I know this. But there's still a lump in my throat most days.
As of this morning I have a huge plan put in place for 2016 and have gotten to a place where if my W suddenly turned around and said she wants to work on our M, I would let her know that my 2016 is spoken for. She'd be welcome to join me for parts of it, but the plan isn't changing. My journey is now my own.
Thank you a thousand times over to everyone on this board. You have all pulled me out of some dark days and times, and just knowing I can come here to vent, vomit out emotions, and ask for guidance is often the very wind in my sails that I need.
Here's to a great week for everyone.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
