Yeah, I know you mean it's tentative. But just for me, I hate to limit it. I kinda feel like as long as Im questioning whether that door is closed or not, then it's not. And I dont know when that will be.

I feel like I'll just know when I know. I dont want to try to put that pressure on myself, because if Im not ready, all its going to do is cause myself pain.

11 months does seem like a good amount of time. I think you had mentioned you were together around 7 years. And with not ever actually being married, your situation is a little different. But, I think when youre ready, you will know.