Sorry you had to go through that. You were right to emphasis it wasn't what you want. It is much more than just another way of living... but you know that.
Best wishes during this tough tough time.
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together