[BrightFuture]

Life Twists, Job, Heather, Sotto, FY, thank you so much for your support. It means so much for me! I just cannot express my gratitude enough for all of you being in my life!

Life Twists, I hope it will come to this with H, making sure to deliver the D papers at worst possible time for me. But, I will make I’m prepared.

Job, you always have the deep insight into things. I’m so sorry to hear that your xh wanted to hurt you so badly and he tried to deliver the papers on the Christmas holiday. This is just so cruel. You so right by saying that anything can happen in three months. I actually have some update later on, that goes along with your point.

Heather, yeas, I can handle things. I can handle H filing for D on our anniversary. I will make him a giant @ss, that’s all. I don’t know why he would want to do this. And thank for checking on me.

Sotto, I also cannot understand what our anniversary has to do with the D papers. He can do it at time. He doesn’t have to wait for the date of the anniversary. After all he has done, what significance does it make? I’m surprised that he even remembers our anniversary. I could file myself, I just don’t want it to be out of desperation or to beat him up to his filing. If he wants to file, fine... I will respond…

FY, I know that it could be just the conversation that would go nowhere… I will be prepared though… I will try not to live my life and think every day about the anniversary date. I will deal with it when it comes. I’m really trying to be in this set of mind…

So, here is some latest development… We went to my mutual friend’s house last night for dinner. I had a moment with my mutual GF and asked her again to clarify what she told me the other day about H’s intention to announce the D word at our anniversary. Here is what she told me… She overheard the conversation between her H and my H on the phone. Her H was telling my H that his crazy woman friend should stay away from me, because it will have an impact of being comfortable staying at the condo. He also said that H should keep his friends from being involved in our business. To which H replied that he is not going to tell his friends to stay away from his business because they are his true friends, and that he might need to deliver the D word on out anniversary to end this situation.

What I think now is that there was some unwanted escalation of events (this crazy woman and my mutual friends) and that H got angry. Hence the words about D and our anniversary. I can’t even elieve that he remembers when our anniversary is.

Next… My GF, who came with me, told me to contact H and let him know that she wants to see him. I texted H about this, asking him if would be in town, so we could meet somewhere. I didn’t get a replay until next morning, telling me that he didn’t have his phone on him at the time of my text and that he would let us know when we could meet.

He texted me this morning asking if we would be at the pool and if we could meet there. I said yes. We went to the pool in the afternoon. He finished playing his water volleyball and came to talk to us, my GF mostly, but I managed to give him some of my updates too. Mostly about the dog and me having a good time at the vacation home. In the conversation, he did mention something that involved “Us”, which I though was kind of strange.

I went to the rest room at some point and my GF told me about the conversation that happed during that time. So, her impression was that H wants the life at the vacation home and it is the best thing he can have. And… he told her that he is going to spend as much time at the condo as he can (this was after he asked her if she is going to come here again and her telling him that she doesn’t know because even I don’t know if and when I’m going to come here again.) And… that he felt weird to be “kicked out of this home” this weekend… Wow, I asked him about me staying there and he was ok with that. Why telling my GF about this now? I think he is kind of scarred that I’m trying to take over the condo…

My GF told me that I should give up any hopes and cut off all the ties with H, because he is hopeless in terms of any possible R with him, that he the lost cause, and that I don’t need him the way he is, and he is not going to be any different ever…

She understands why I want to have the vacation home option, to come over here and have a relaxing time for myself. But, she thinks that I’m better off to just write off that part of my life and just move on… Ha, what else is new… right?

Some other interesting stuff… While we were at the pool, with GF talking to H, his crazy woman friend came by with her daughter. She wanted to give me a hug (which I allowed) and introduces us to her daughter, who is a lovely and beautiful girl (my opinion…) Then I went to the bathroom and she came there too (I had a feeling that she didn’t need to go, but she saw me going there). She had a small talk with me, asking me if I was enjoying my time and telling me some info about her son and daughter. I was nice to her, complimenting her about her daughter and telling her I (and my GF) indeed have been having a great time.

So, hopefully the things will get settled and she (and H) will not be threatened by me anymore, LOL. I’m still not sure what I’m going to do… in terms of coming to the vacation home and in terms of D… I think I do need to give up… As everyone is telling me… I just don’t know how… I’m such a loser…

I’m still in a very confused state though. Listening to my GF, my mutual friends, etc… All telling me that I need to file or give up the condo… And my GF telling me again that I really don’t need to be at the vacation home anymore, because it just prolongs my healing process… I kind of agree with her…

Some other stuff… My neighbors here…. I and my GF went to their house for a drink. Along with some other conversations, they mentioned about how civilized me and my H are about sharing the condo after the D. I told them that we actually were not legally D’s yet. They didn’t know that. All they said that my H talked only good things about me. This made me even more confused…

Can anyone tell me that the love can just disappear for good…? The person who was in love with you at one time, is now so indifferent and cold… Talking nice things about you, but has no feelings what so ever? Was it a true love? Or, just an experiment? Somehow, I NEED TO GET OVER IT AND MOVE ON! I don’t know what to do to make this happen! I’m desperate!