Hi Jim. Hero is the correct term because I truly admire the insight you have into yourself and your ability to own your feelings and how you control your emotions for the sake of your kids
Your completely fright that OM means nothing in any of this and W was going to do what she did in some way From what you say I doont see your W finding true happiness from this R because she has yet to do the work on herself OM might seem like the answer now but time will tell.
It's really hard but I wouldn't even attempt to give comparisons between yourself and OM headspace. Your W was looking for a way out and anyone would have fitted the bill
Your loneliness is a difficult one. As you know I have my 4 kids at home and plenty of animals and housework to do but I still find I feel lonely for wha t EXW and I had re the connection and being able to share thoughts and our lives I suppose time and thinking of the positive is the way to go even though it's much easier to say than do
Beautiful words re the gift your kids are And if W and you never get along again then your right , look at what she gave you.
Re your W and reconciliation , that's a long road Jim and I would never say never , yes there is a lot of trust issues and the like but you knew problems existed in the M and while I'm not making excuses for your W , circumstances can make people act out of character and once on a slope then it can become slippery very quickly
I don't think your W feels no love for you but I do think she has covered it over fairly comprehensively with resentment and blame Maybe she will never be able to uncover it but I do believe it's there Time is a great force in these matters and the universe can work in strange ways Most of us never expected to be here so who knows where we will be in a few years from now
Jim. Your a young man and have a lot of living left to do. Your talk re bringing so much more to a new R is very healthy and positive
