So finally have time to explain my sitch. I have read DR and I am at the stage of last resort. Basically H declared he is ending the M.
According to him: It's been over for a long while. There is no physical attraction. He has no desire to work on it. i.e. No counseling
Other than an EA in Feb '14 where I have been like a scared rabbit when he admitted it, I thought it was okay. He did not give me indication there has been problems...
No. On second thought, the signs were there and I was not hearing what he was not saying.
Last week (living in hell for 5 days already), I have gone through the normal stages of grief, both alone and with him. Within 3 days, I was practicing 180, thanks to suggestions from you all, and reading DR.
It's hard for me to ask for help. I have reached out to very few, very close friends who are being amazing.
