Matt, I am sending you good will. Truly this is about as low as things can get.
If you've read my thread you'll know it's been on my mind today: God's will, not ours, be done. Have faith. It is YOUR will that your W changes her heart and reaches back out to you. It may be God's as well, but we don't know, because we don't have HIS perspective. Have faith, and clear your mind of your desires, fears, and needs. Trust that if you follow in the plan he has for you it will all work out.
Jesus was surrounded by wicked people. Although he prayed for them he wasn't able to call on God to change their ways. But he did call on God for the strength to do what God needed him to do in the face of that evil, and was blessed with the strength to face suffering beyond anything you and I will endure. Be strong and let him shine through you in all you do.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15